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  Also by Bonnie R. Paulson

  Clearwater County, Redemption series

  Romancing Redemption

  Riding for Redemption

  Resisting Redemption

  Regretting Redemption

  Redemption Complete Series, Books 1 - 5 (Coming Soon)

  Rewarding Redemption (Coming Soon)

  Clearwater County, The Montana Trails series

  Montana Trails Series Box Set

  Downshift Series

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  Table of Contents

  Also By Bonnie R. Paulson

  Romancing Redemption (Clearwater County, Redemption series, #1)

  Romancing Redemption

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Also By Bonnie R. Paulson

  Romancing Redemption

  A Clearwater County Romance

  by

  Bonnie R. Paulson

  Romancing Redemption

  LOVE ISN’T ILLEGAL.

  The outlaw’s daughter...

  A man seeking a connection to his family...

  Can love push past boundaries and exceed expectations?

  When it’s all about honor in Clearwater County, Rosie has a hard time believing anyone would want the daughter of an outlaw. With her secrets and her past, she only wants to make life easier for her sister. But a man from her past only wants to make her his.

  Michael has a shot at Rosie but when her secrets come out, his family objects. Then competition for her hand turns out to be danger in disguise. Can Michael save Rosie before it’s too late? Or will her pride keep their hearts apart?

  Fight with Rosie as she seeks the only redemption necessary – true love.

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  Rosie

  Chapter 1

  FIVE YEARS EARLIER

  Waiting to be fed didn’t sit well with Rosie.

  She wasn’t an animal. Her sister, Sara Beth, was hungry, too. But if they touched anything in the pantry or fridge, Madam would make them regret it.

  Five years since Mom died and they’d been ripped from the only home they’d ever known and thrust onto the Madam’s ranch. Even after all that time, Rosie still couldn’t get used to the begging-for-food part of living there.

  Or the men. All the men as they walked in and out of the house, the way they looked at Rosie and Sara Beth, the way they handed money to Madam or squeezed her round behind.

  Nothing was easy to get used to in that house. Sleeping on the floor when they used to have a bed and having cruel slaps aimed at their heads when they used to have kisses fall on their cheeks.

  Nothing made sense. Especially the angry red creeping up Madam’s face as she growled at the person on the other end of the phone.

  Truth be told, Rosie didn’t care about the conversation between Madam and whoever. It had nothing to do with her and she wanted to keep things that way.

  Her stomach rumbled and she pushed her clenched fist into the soft skin of her abdomen to help with the noisy pain. She and her younger sister hadn’t eaten since the day before. Not being fed on a consistent basis didn’t dull the gnawing pain of hunger as it threatened to eat through her ribcage. She bit her tongue, hoping the taste of coppery blood would help blunt her hunger’s edge.

  Huddled in the corner of the kitchen, Rosie and her sister tried to keep silent, avoiding the guaranteed wrath from Madam – the only constant in their lives. Next to the door to the laundry room where they slept on a pile of blankets, Rosie chewed on her cheeks to keep her mind focused on holding still instead of crying for food. She’d taught the same trick to Sara Beth the first few months they’d been at the place.

  They’d finished scrubbing the kitchen floor, wiping the windows, washing the toilets and showers, and organizing the laundry about the time the phone rang. Thankfully, because Madam was in the kitchen and maybe when she hung up, they’d be able to ask her for food without being cuffed or whipped.

  Rosie had more scars on her shoulders and back because Madam had tried breaking her over and over and hadn’t succeeded... yet. Sometimes Rosie wanted to yell at the top of her lungs that they didn’t live in the 1800s and people weren’t supposed to be treated that way. Or were they?

  Clasping her sister’s hands, Rosie whispered. “It’s okay, Sara Beth, I’m sure we’ll get something soon.” She caressed the chapped knuckles with her own cracking fingers.

  Sara Beth nodded her head, but kept her gaze down. The broken spirit Rosie saw more and more in her sister hurt. She wanted to shake her and yell not to forget their mother, not to forget what happiness – even what slight joy – felt like. They’d escape, someday, but not until they had enough money or security to keep them off the streets.

  Rosie had dreams and when the time was right, she was going after them. She’d steal and hoard as much as she could until then. That’s what digging holes in the yard were for – storing items to pawn later.

  Madam glanced over her shoulder, the phone pressed tight to her ear. She glared at the girls, the dark lining of her makeup shadowing her eyes into haggard gloom rather than exotic temptress.

  Rosie tightened her jaw. Emboldened by the consistent hunger and the ever-present dreams of happiness without Madam always around to tamp them down, she gave in to the independent side persistent in breaking out. She had enough. She’d be hanged before she let that woman continue to feed the whores better than two girls who worked hard for nothing.

  Especially the daughters of the bastard who owned the place. Was it a card she should play? Probably not, but Rosie had learned a couple things since being placed with the Madam. She’d do what she had to, even if only to survive.

  Hanging up the phone, Madam turned and placed her hands at the waist of her tight black dress. She never allowed pants, said they were of the devil.

  Apparently, she and the devil had made a pact to ignore prostitution as a sin as long as pants counted toward damnation.

  Her heavily made-up expression twisted, the red of her lips like a slash of blood on white painted porcelain. “Well, girls, looks like you’re not going to have a pot to piss in. Devlyn Caracus was arrested this afternoon. You’re out.” She jerked her thumb over her shoulder, smirking. “I don’t have to keep you here anymore.” Her dyed-black hair swung back and forth around her shoulders as she laughed mirthlessly.

  Shock curdled in Rosie’s stomach. Her mouth fell open and she shook her head. She was only seventeen. She didn’t have anywhere else to go... but impending escape slammed her lips together. Getting out of that whore house was the most important thing, second only to keeping Sara Beth safe and alive.

  The need to get her twelve-year-old sister out of there hummed deep inside.

  Rosie lifted her chin, eyes hard. “You can’t just throw us out. We need money and food.” No way did Rosie have the guts to ask for back pay, but still she needed money. She wasn’t stupid, just desperate.

  Madam arched her eyebrow and stamped toward them. Each footstep echoed off the spotless linoleum – cleaned by Rosie and Sara Beth’s hands.

  Rosie pushed herself up from the ground. Her thin legs and arms shook from the effort after constant work without food. But she moved in front of Sara Beth so Ma
dam wouldn’t be able to hurt her, squaring her shoulders.

  Madam raised her hand, and then dropped it. She halted inches from Rosie and studied her.

  Shifting in the worn slippers Rosie had rescued from the garbage of one of the prostitutes, she hid her discomfort from the calculation in Madam’s eyes. Nothing good ever came of bringing too much attention to one’s self around the female pimp. Most of the time, less food and or a beating would be the least of it.

  “Tell you what, Rosie. You can have all the food you want, all the creature comforts of this grand establishment, and your own room...” Madam looked them over, lifting the corner of her mouth. She glanced at Sara Beth peeking over the side of Rosie’s shoulder. “I’ll even let your sister stay and not work, for now, and you can save up some money to get out.”

  A sinking sensation like rocks plopped into Rosie’s lower stomach. It wasn’t the first time Madam had insinuated Rosie would enjoy their living conditions better with a change in vocation. She’d just never come right out and offered.

  The only business Madam was involved in was selling flesh. Women flesh. And Rosie wasn’t yet an adult. She’d never had a first kiss or even been on a proper date and there Madam wanted her to have sex with whomever Madam chose? Rosie glanced at Sara Beth, too, whose big blue eyes widened in fear. Her cheeks had sunk in long before from continuous hunger.

  Rosie hesitated in declining. If nothing else, Madam did take care of her whores.

  But Rosie was nothing if not confident in her worth. Her potential lay well above that of screwing men for money. She was going to find the man who would love her for herself and he’d treat her like a princess. She wouldn’t be a whore or a beaten down woman like her mother.

  Before fear could reason with the swing of her arm, she pulled back her hand and put her weight into the slap that wiped the self-gratifying grin off Madam’s face. Rosie stepped close to the older woman, enunciating every word. “I’m no whore. We’ll take our things and go.”

  And they had nothing. Not even the clothes on their backs were technically theirs, but they’d worked for so long and for so little, Rosie justified her actions as they gathered together supplies.

  Madam owed them so much more than bread and old sheets.

  Rosie was determined to get what had been taken from her.

  Respect.

  Rosie

  Chapter 2

  PRESENT DAY

  Sara Beth’s long gold waves trailed behind her as she pushed the horse into a gallop. Healthy color bloomed in her cheeks and her bright eyes attested to the happiness Rosie had been able to deliver.

  Rosie watched her sister play with envy and joy.

  Play. The word made Sara Beth sound like an eight-year-old. But she did play, riding a horse at the local Salish fair. Once a year, the Salish elders invited the outside world onto the reservation at the Lodge and offered a fair-like atmosphere to promote cultural connection and good will.

  And also, to remind everyone of the casino standing tall in the distance.

  Everyone had to sully their morals to make it in the world.

  Rosie adjusted her legs on the Adirondack chair set up in the shade of a large Aspen copse. Beautiful silvery-green leaves fluttered above her in the slight breeze, whispering like old friends.

  Tucking a loose strand of hair under the sun hat, Rosie didn’t take her eyes off her sister. She avoided looking too closely at the other fair attendees. Who knew when she’d see someone from Madam’s and then – worse – they’d recognize her.

  She would have to get back to work soon, but she prolonged leaving as long as possible. Sara Beth would be starting school again that week and Rosie wouldn’t see her as much since she’d started working nights.

  But not for Madam.

  That day had branded itself on her memory, cauterizing her independence and sealing her responsibilities.

  She may not be from grand parentage or even a lineage better than a mutt, but at least she hadn’t spread her legs for money. She could hold her head up about that.

  A slow smile spread over her lips as she curled her fingers into her palm. When she was feeling self-conscious, she’d remember the tingle in her hand from slapping Madam and reminded herself it took guts to do that.

  The steady clip-clop of horseshoes brought her back to the present. She peered up at Sara Beth laughing in the saddle. “Can you believe this beauty, Rosie? One day I’m going to have seventy horses and ride a different one every day.” The sight of her sister’s sun-kissed, filled-in cheeks and sparkling blue eyes warmed Rosie.

  Standing, Rosie reached for the reigns. “Come on, trouble. I need to get to work and we still haven’t eaten lunch yet.” She wouldn’t have a chance to eat dinner with Sara Beth, since Rosie worked the dinner shift.

  “I’ll take the horse back. Just give me a minute.” Sara Beth clucked her tongue and moved the reigns, turning the horse to the booth offering rides for three dollars. Rosie hadn’t wanted to say anything but three dollars was a lot of money to throw away on a horse ride.

  But she’d kept her mouth shut because Sara Beth had a lot of childhood to catch up on and being seventeen didn’t leave a lot of time to make up for it. They’d escaped hell when Sara Beth was twelve. Rosie refused to let her teenage years fade to drudgery like hers had.

  Rosie reached down beside the chair and gathered up the secondhand tote bag she used as their outing bag and a purse. Inside she carried extra snack foods like saltine crackers and dried fruit, sunblock, a how-to business book, as well as an extra set of clothes for each of them.

  The one thing she wouldn’t admit to Sara Beth or anyone else was how she’d painstakingly sewed every extra dollar of their savings into the lining of the bag and how she could never let the ratty thing out of her sight.

  The sun shifted, moving the shadow of the aspen east, exposing the grass and her feet to the afternoon rays. A tall silhouette with straight legs and wings of a hat paused beside her bag.

  Male attention was not on her list of wants and dreams. And lately, she’d gotten nothing but the annoying kind from men trying to breach the solitude she wrapped around herself – forward and unappealing.

  Rosie finished packing her bag and stood, dragging her gaze up the long, well-stacked jeans. The tight V of his waist and chest didn’t go unnoticed. Rosie caught her breath, swallowing the curt reply ready on her lips.

  Michael Rourke.

  Crap. How had she not known he was at the fair?

  Normally, every inch of her flesh was tuned to his presence. Nothing was more annoying than having such a strong attraction for a man she’d never spoken with. Absently, Rosie brushed off her jeans and raised her eyes to meet his.

  She wanted calm and steady. Loyal.

  Word around town was his work ethic screamed consistency and determination. She respected that in a man – in anyone.

  His low, deep voice soothed the air around her. “Excuse me. I think this is yours.”

  She glanced at his outstretched hand. A lone yellow-centered purple flower lay across his calloused palm. Rosie didn’t let her surprise show.

  She shook her head, careful not to allow the hat to fall from her hair or the sunglasses to slip down. “I’m sorry, you’re confused. That’s not mine.” Lifting her gaze, she ignored her strong desire to reach out and twist an appealing dark curl peaking from under the edge of a low bucket chocolate brown Stetson – the hat choice of most of Montana cowboys.

  His even darker russet eyes watched her intently but with a humorous tilt to the eyebrows. “It could be, if you’d take it.”

  She couldn’t keep her grin from spreading across her lips as she reached for the solid stem and plucked it from his hand. “The alpine aster. Thank you.” Her first flower from a man – and a good looking one at that – was her favorite. The resilient plant had a lot in common with the girl Rosie had been and who she continued to be. Rosie kept to herself the flower was her favorite.

  Turning, she lift
ed the lightly scented flower to her nose and sniffed long and slow. Spindly petals reminded her of a tattered dress Devlyn Caracus, her father, had allowed her mother to wear when he wasn’t in town. Mother had been so lovely without the stress of him around.

  Drawing the bag up her shoulder, Rosie glanced at Michael, but didn’t stare too long. “Would you like to walk with me? I’m heading over that way to pick up my sister.” She pointed toward Sara Beth, returning her gaze to the booth where the horses waited calmly.

  Michael fell into step beside her, his thumbs hooked into the pockets of his well-stacked denims. Rosie couldn’t ignore the breadth of his shoulders or the rugged tan of his forearms beneath the half-rolled flannel shirt sleeves.

  She’d never seen a man at Madam’s who obviously worked the land. Most of the clients had been pale and soft looking. But not the man walking beside her. He’d never appeared weak or cowardly or desperate for anything. Things she wanted in a man. A husband.

  Dang it.

  Rosie glanced at his face as they walked. He looked straight ahead, as if walking along beside her but not with her. The sensation that he might be ignoring her was a little confusing.

  How had she missed him walking up? Michael Rourke. Oh, Mylanta! She’d been watching him for so long. The strong, silent type, Michael was the complete opposite from her father – nothing but an abusive monster to her mother. The man had never really acknowledged Rosie or her sister, but the bruises, cuts, and burns on their mom had done more than enough damage. He’d been loud and mean and the more Rosie lived in the outside world, the more she learned about his gang and all the raping and pillaging they’d done before jail.

  But Michael... well, he’d been her Colby-crush when she’d never had a chance to go back to school after moving to Madam’s.

  Twirling the flower between her fingers, petals splaying like a spinning skirt, Rosie stopped and faced him when he too halted, mimicking her. Raising her gaze, she also tried ignoring the dark stubble along his jawline and the soft curve of his bottom lip. Up close he was even better looking which was more than a little intimidating.